Post by Deleted on Oct 10, 2018 19:14:43 GMT -5
Would it be okay to do something like this? People can ask questions if they want to, but I mostly wanted a topic where I can just ramble on about my life lol. If this isn't the right place, then sorry in advance. Will delete it, or have a mod move it or something.
Anyways, I thought I'd just continue the sob story I mentioned on my introduction. I'm overweight, transgender and clinically depressed. I'm taking meds, but it mostly takes away the suicidal tendencies. Unfortunately, I don't have much motivation or will power to do anything with my life. It's like my depression is weighing me down, and I can't move.
I know a lot of people suggest stuff like, cleaning, doing yoga, or having a better mindset, or maybe just growing up. But the reality with clinical depression is that it's a chemical imbalance in the brain, so it's not like I can help it. I literally don't have the brain power.
So when people tell me things like "oh it's all in your head~" Well, yeah. That's the thing, lol. It IS in my head, and I can't change it. It's how my brain is wired, and to my continuous misfortune, it's how it's been for as long as I can remember.
It doesn't stop me from trying to change tho. But it's really hard when you've been struggling for years on end. There comes a time where you just succumb to those negative thoughts. It's just really hard man. Specially when you have such an unsupportive family. Well, they're supportive I guess. They're just queerphobic and don't want to acknlowlegde me being transgender. I won't get into details on that, cause it'll just make me more depressed, but they just cause me a lot of body dysphoria.
Aaaaaanyways, in regards to my weight, I'm gonna TRY this new diet thing I discovered, called the "Keto Diet". Apparently it's all meat, veggies and fat. I love carbs, but I can deal without them for a while, at least to test this out and see if it really works. If it does, then I'll continue it and cut carbs altogether. I've been reading up on water fasting too, which at first I thought meant to stop drinking water. But it's the opposite. You go days without eating, and drinking only water. I could do that. I mostly eat out of anxiety and self destruction, so I can try that too.
Might post results, maybe.
Anyways, I thought I'd just continue the sob story I mentioned on my introduction. I'm overweight, transgender and clinically depressed. I'm taking meds, but it mostly takes away the suicidal tendencies. Unfortunately, I don't have much motivation or will power to do anything with my life. It's like my depression is weighing me down, and I can't move.
I know a lot of people suggest stuff like, cleaning, doing yoga, or having a better mindset, or maybe just growing up. But the reality with clinical depression is that it's a chemical imbalance in the brain, so it's not like I can help it. I literally don't have the brain power.
So when people tell me things like "oh it's all in your head~" Well, yeah. That's the thing, lol. It IS in my head, and I can't change it. It's how my brain is wired, and to my continuous misfortune, it's how it's been for as long as I can remember.
It doesn't stop me from trying to change tho. But it's really hard when you've been struggling for years on end. There comes a time where you just succumb to those negative thoughts. It's just really hard man. Specially when you have such an unsupportive family. Well, they're supportive I guess. They're just queerphobic and don't want to acknlowlegde me being transgender. I won't get into details on that, cause it'll just make me more depressed, but they just cause me a lot of body dysphoria.
Aaaaaanyways, in regards to my weight, I'm gonna TRY this new diet thing I discovered, called the "Keto Diet". Apparently it's all meat, veggies and fat. I love carbs, but I can deal without them for a while, at least to test this out and see if it really works. If it does, then I'll continue it and cut carbs altogether. I've been reading up on water fasting too, which at first I thought meant to stop drinking water. But it's the opposite. You go days without eating, and drinking only water. I could do that. I mostly eat out of anxiety and self destruction, so I can try that too.
Might post results, maybe.
